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Commander5AM
Commander 5AM
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> Created by the Decepticons to infiltrate the Autobot HQ and gather information, but escaped before programming over her free will was complete.
> Normally goes by the name of Sam, a shorter version of Commander 5AM.
> Is a Raichu in her spare time.
> Can listen to a 4 hour mix of Nyan cat for 8 hours

Current Residence: Warzone Mangold, Warzone Latitude became to expensive and Warzone Aileen fell apart, pretty much literally.
Favourite photographer[s]: Richard Billingham, Robert Capa and Andreas Schmidt
Currently Playing: Minecraft and Pokemon, tried WoW but the constant monthly subscriptions pissed me off and the repeat quests bored me.
MP3 player of choice: One that works
Personal Quote: Photography is like baking a cake. Even if you do everything exactly the same way, it will always come out differently.
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Today is a sad day, for today I lost my oldest pet.

Our eldest cat Pepper passed away peacefully in her sleep this morning. She was 16 years old and her age just caught up on her in the end. We knew it was going to happen as yesterday she barely ate anything which was very unlike her as she normally gobbles up anything given to her and is back for more within an hour. She nibbled whatever was given to her, she hardly touched the treat I put down for her which was her favourite thing. When mum got home she fed her some tuna which she ate hungrily off a fork, but still seemed to be reluctant struggling. We could just tell it was the end, I think she knew it too.

She waddled up to bed with my mother at normal time (around 9pm) and at around 2am I saw her on the upper landing of our house as I went to go toilet before going to bed. She was panting and struggling to stand, so I gave her pets and cuddles and said my goodbyes then as I felt like I wouldn't have another chance, then I helped her back onto her feet. I could see she was trying to stand long enough to go down the stairs and decided I would help her down once I had gone to the toilet, however when I came out of the bathroom she had gone. She was always a determined and stubborn cat so I wasn't surprised that she'd gone it alone, once she was standing and off she'd always been more stable on her feet. I didn't follow her, I didn't feel like I could really. I don't know if that was the best thing for me to have done or not but I couldn't face it, thinking I'd go down after her to just find her dead.

We found her at about 10am this morning on the lower landing, laying down as if she'd just settled down to sleep after eating, though by how her muzzle was we guessed she'd had a drink before hand. I used one of the blankets I got from my flight to Texas to cover her up and then got my brother, he's always been stronger than me or my mum when it comes to emotions (My mum is very strong too but just couldn't bring herself to move her, whereas I'm a fucking emotional wreck when it comes to animals. I was crying yesterday because of the fact I knew this was coming, it was obvious since she wasn't eating and the other cats were avoiding her). We had to temporarily store her on the balcony in a bin bag until I'd gone to feed a cat I am catsitting and my brother had ran some errands, then he brought a friend over and they dug her a hole. She was buried in the back garden at around 1pm today.

Personally, I am upset but at the same time I am happy. She passed away peacefully at home in her sleep and to our knowledge she wasn't in any pain. She wasn't on any medication and we didn't have to take her to be put down, meaning she didn't have to be laying on that cold metal slab at the vets. I got to say my goodbyes, as did mum who told me she gave her lots of cuddles and such before she went to bed. We both knew this was coming, if not today then tomorrow, if not tomorrow then the next day. She had taken quite the turn in the space of a day. This has mostly hit us hard because we've had her since 1999, she came into the family with her sister just before we went to America for the first time so she has always kinda just been there. It's going to be weird not seeing her sitting by her food bowls demanding breakfast in the mornings now, or hearing my mum shouting at me from her room saying "She's doing it again!" in regards to her loud, content purrs she used to emit on the pillow next to her at night.

But yeah, I now live in a house with 3 cats and a dog instead of 4. Rest in peace Pepper cat, you stroppy, stubborn tortoise shell. Say hi to your sister Salt for me. At least you saw another Christmas sweetheart.

September 1999 - 7th January 2016.
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doomiscool Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2016  Hobbyist Filmographer
Happy New Year Sam :D Hope you had a lovely holiday season :iconknockoutlaplz:
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Commander5AM Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2016
Hewwo, bit late but Happy New Year XD It was also, spent most of it travelling (travelled to my sisters the day before Christmas Eve, travelled home Christmas Day and have spent every day since travelling back and forth from a lady I'm catsittings house) so meh, but at least I've also had a bit of time to myself too. How was yours?
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doomiscool Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2016  Hobbyist Filmographer
No problem :) Mine was fine. Christmas was fun, though, a little less eventful than some times, with quite a few less presents :P Doesn't bother me as I prefer not being given crap I won't use/don't want.

For New Years, I had some of my favourite sake with my sister and was actually okay enough to watch the fireworks on tv with the others this year (first time in 2 years! I've been having to cover my head with a pillow when I wasn't stable enough). Gonna go back to trying to lose weight this coming week haha. Need to control my diet and exercise or boom, still a size 16, but a bit on the flabby side. :L
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Commander5AM Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2016
Oh I know that feel, I got a hot water bottle for Christmas this year. I will never use it, I don't use hot water bottles I have my chestnut kitten if I ever need something warmed up (she's a thermal teddy thing that you can microwave for a little bit, has warming bead things in). I know I shouldn't be unappreciative and shit but I'm never going to use it and I'll feel bad if I get rid of it, so now I'm stuck with it sitting around doing nothing. I prefer to get amazon vouchers >->

I watched the fireworks on my computer, I always do XD Too many people there to feel like I want to actually be there, I'd rather be in the warm. Hugged Ping for a lot of it (my family don't really do New Years, mum goes to bed at 9pm and my brother goes out) and just chilled with my last J2O. I'd like to diet, but I'm at the point where I've got so much wrong with me I don't know where to start.
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Kittylover9399 Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2015
Happy birthday C:
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Commander5AM Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2015
Thanks X)
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Kittylover9399 Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2015
You're very welcome ^3^
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Tsuchinoko-chan Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2015
Hey Bonnie, just thought I'd add you from Minami =)
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Commander5AM Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2015
X) Heya, you're welcome to add me and I shall add you back.
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Tsuchinoko-chan Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2015
:highfive:
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